I am so ready for the day that I feel accomplished in my art,

and yet I know that to feel accomplished in art is the same as terminating your progress.


(sigh)


In any case, if that day ever comes, where I at least feel like I'm at the level I want to be at (not the level I want to stop at; but the level that now-me wants future-me to be at during some point ahead of now-me), I think I'll want to go to a new account. I'm not sure what this obsession is that I have with total refreshes. Perhaps I just go through lots of identity crises. But whatever, it's what makes me feel like I've reached--and solidified that I am at--a new point on my linear path of progress.

I think so far the name choice is between
Plasma Ashing (google it)

or

hai-fulgens (two words from my two favorite languages put together! can you guess which/the meaning?)





(....I feel like I've said this exact entry on here before, which is kind of making me worry about two things, a) my memory which seems to have been slowly eroding ever since I turned seventeen, and b) whether I've progressed enough since saying all this the first time.)


Edit:
I think what brought this is up is the fact that while I trudge through the core classes at PCC I start to reach out and yearn for art(/stories), and it makes me think of whether I could actually pursue art as a major and as a career, and where I would go. I looked up colleges last night and it just got me thinking about progress and thinking of how amazing I could be and what I could accomplish and where it could lead me.

Lately I've been really interested in CCAD (Columbus College of Art and Design, Columbus, Ohio), RCAD (Ringling College of Art and Design, Sarasota, Florida), and VFS (Vancouver Film School, Vancouver, British Columbia).